I don’t know how to describe my day today. I am in a strange mood. I told Tom I was kind of in a fog, but I don’t think that is quite right. I just feel like there is something I should be doing, or taking care of. I just don’t know what. I am doing laundry and the house is pretty clean at the moment. I just feel odd.
Maybe I am coming off the holiday adrenaline. It has been a kind of crazy couple of weeks. I was trying to clean the house, and worry about getting together with my side of the family. As I have posted before, at least I think I have, I come from a very dysfunctional family. My mother has to always be in control, and both of my children like to take advantage of everything they can. One worse than the other. And I don’t know how to break the pattern. I am no saint. And I can be just as mean and nasty at times as anyone. Holidays are a chore more than a happy event when it comes to my family.
Then on December 24, 2015 we found out that a Christian friend from our old church passed away from colon cancer. He had only found out about it about a month before he passed away. And right before that his mother had passed away. I really thought that Christmas eve day was a really bad day to pass away. And I know it was hard for his wife and family, but then I thought, this is a true Christian man. He not only talked the talk, he WALKED the walk. He was there for anyone who needed him no matter what it was for. Or whatever time of day it was. He was more of a father to my son than my son’s real dad. But then as was stated at his funeral, he got to see Jesus face to face on the wonderful day that we celebrate His birthday.
Then more cleaning between Christmas and New Years, the funeral for the friend and a great get together with Tom’s side of the family. They came on New Years day for a wonderful Christmas gathering. I do like that side of the family. They are a great bunch of people and we got to see our newest nephew who was born early in December. He was not quite a month old. He and his brother, who is three, were so good. The older nephew had a great time playing with his own toys as well as some of my stuffed animals. He got to go see the horses and donkey, and check out the chickens and even see a few freshly laid eggs. We had lots of good food and exchanging of gifts. It was a great day.
And then yesterday my son told me that another great Christian lady from our old church passed away also. She was in her nineties, so it was not to much of a surprise, but still another loss of a truly wonderful Christian lady. A loss for us, but a gain for Heaven.
Maybe I am just being melancholy. Is that the right term? Not even sure I spelled it right. Anyway, now I guess I am done whining and hopefully not boring you to tears. I do have a lot on my plate coming up in the next few weeks, so maybe that has something to do with it. Have a great weekend and upcoming week.
Stay Safe and God Bless!