Coming Down Off My Adrenalin High

Okay I am not sure how I am feeling. Other than being really tired today. Daughter got out of jail yesterday and got a ride home. But since I and granddaughter had the keys to the apartment, she waited at the office. When I finally got there, I was not sure how things were going to be. Apparently she has a pretty smooth tongue, our she has the money I don’t know she has, or the manager is way more easy going than daughter makes her out to be. She told me that she could make payments and keep the apartment. That is not the impression I got from the manager. Maybe I was too tired or frustrated to care at the time.

I took her with me to pick up granddaughter from school and the look on granddaughter’s face when she seen her mother almost made me cry. She was so happy to see her. She is angry with her mom, but she really does love her. And daughter does love her daughter. Although I would think differently since she done what she has done. She says she did a lot of thinking and praying and is going to change. Time will tell. I have tried to give her the benefit of the doubt over the last twenty or so years, and have finally come to the conclusion that she will never change.  But I have learned over the years to never say never. And as a Christian, I am trying to forgive and forget. That is something very hard for me to do.

As soon as they got out of the car, they hugged and that is something my mom and I can’t do at times. We have never had the deep love that a mother and daughter should have. I think we never will, but then again; never say never.

Granddaughter wanted to stay with her mom for the weekend and the upcoming week. I was torn with saying no and had decided to let her stay only for the weekend. But she asked for the upcoming week also. And even though I knew she would come home with me, I didn’t have the heart to say no. It is about a 30 mile drive from our farm to Topeka to get her to and from school, but we were willing to do it for awhile until things were decided to try for custody. I am very ready to get custody. We both are. We are not entirely ready to rule it out, but for now since we don’t have legal right to keep her from her mom, we will see how this week will go. Daughter is supposed to call for help with from Valeo. And is to get granddaughter into therapy too at Family Service and Guidance. I told them both that I would go too if it will help.

There is another Truancy court for granddaughter and mom in early February, and daughter has a pretrial court coming up in April. So I am not too sure that it may be recommended by granddaughter’s court advocate to suggest us taking temporary custody anyway. It would be better coming from the court than just us I guess.

It was kind of different to not have her here last night. Definitely quiet and not as entertaining. As Tom said, she kept us entertained and was good to have her around. She is usually good for us. I guess I was always better for my grandma too. 😀

Well anyway, that is my update on everything. I feel so unsure of what to do at times. We can all use all the thoughts and prayers we can get.

Stay Safe and God Bless!

February 2, 2015 The day after the snow and wind (28)

6 responses to “Coming Down Off My Adrenalin High

  1. I’m never sure a leopard can change heir spots but I’m willing (fool that I am) to let them try a few times.I think the choice is in your daughter’s hands whether she lets herself down or not and more importantly whether she lets her daughter down. I hope she doesn’t and that she really makes a major change and succeeds for all your sakes.
    xxx Huge Hugs xxx

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  2. Thank you David. I am truly hoping that she will, but I told her she had to prove it to me 200% that she is going to change. I am still not sure she won’t lose her apartment, but we will see. I am trying not to alienate my granddaughter. She did inform her mother that she needed to stay away from the person who keeps getting her into trouble. Thanks for the hugs. Keep us in your thoughts. 🙂

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  3. All you can do is hope for the best, be there for your granddaughter and try not to worry too much …easy to say I know, but you won’t be able to alter the outcome of the situation, stay safe xx

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  4. Thank you Roma. I am trying very hard not to lose my cool. Keep us in your thoughts and prayers. We will need them. Hope the weather is good there in the UK. It is very cold here. Hugs to you and Beloved.


  5. I’m having a little success with quite times and reminding myself to “just let go” of things out of my control – so please take comfort from that and the thought I’m wishing you well and remembering you in my prayers ❤

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